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I’ve been hitting meetings early, 8 a.m. I get out of the house (Dakoske) early, get excersize (bike), and get it out of the way, sometimes I go to one later but I don’t have too. The morning meeting is at the mental hospital, bldg. 50. If I arrive early I go into cuppa joes and have a latte. I like getting up early but I still need a nap later. I need twelve hours it seems, ten for minimum. I don’t say a lot, at all, anywhere. I have creeping negativism and don’t want it settling in my brain much less coming out of my mouth. I carry a comp book with me, and sometimes I jot down notes during meetings. This morning I was drowsily considering how low my pride in appearance had sunk. I didn’t want to talk about it so I jotted it down. I was failing the Gutter Test and hadn’t even been aware. If I saw myself laying in the gutter I woulda spit on me or at least said a mental UGH.